Saturday, April 21, 2012

S. Starting Over...

By Swap Meet Dave


So.  For you that have been on my blog for a bit, you know that I am working to lose weight, and my goal is to do this before I go to Alaska.  Well, there was a bit of a hitch in my get-along, by breaking my leg. I didn't exercise.  I ate more, I guess, too.  At least the scale is creeping UP again.  I haven't been putting my weight on the notes on the side. I have been keeping track on my little notepad in the bathroom, but just haven't updated on the side there...  : /  At last count, it was 238ish, if you are interested...

Now I need to get realistic here.  

I haven't enjoyed trying to do a stationary bike, for 2 reasons.  It's in the shop, with Husband's equipment.  Husband has to wear earplugs when he works.  If I want to use the bike, so do I.  And, it HURTS to use the bike.  Let's just say I get raging Monkey Butt and leave it there, ok?  : (  

(We don't have room in the house for the bike, and Husband is using it, too.)

Husband has asked that I not walk on the hill.  So I have tried walking on the road with mixed success.  I found that we have way too much traffic on the main road for me to feel comfortable walking there.  The neighbors have a doberman.  The doberman hates me, and has come just short of cornering me twice when I walk that way.  So I am limited to a walk to the intersection and back, the other direction, and that works.  But I am walking on roadbed, not dirt.  I walk an hour, and pay for it for about two days.  This isn't motivation to make me want to continue...  

And I have had something new.  I am getting downright timid.  I haven't been timid about trying to climb things, or go places, but the other day Husband wanted me to climb a ladder.  I was shaking a bit.  Now, I am healed up.  I am more or less 100 percent.  But I am worried I might... I don't know what, break the other leg?  Bend the metal I have in the healed leg?    ???

I have an appointment with my doctor Monday, I want to discuss some possible solutions. (Different shoes? Different diet?  Locking me in a cell with bread and water until next year???)  

I am trying to decide what to do here, as well.  I thought about opening another blog, strictly for the weight biz.  

Not sure I want to do that, as I would probably slack on it as "just one more thing to do".  I thought maybe of making an "upper" and "lower" blog, the upper with my daily doings, the lower with my scale saga.  I thought for about a minute of weighing every day, but I don't want to drive myself crazy (er), I get nauseated when I go on the scale once a week.  

So, for any of you that want to be a mentor, advocate, teacher, or even just get rid of two cents, have you any ideas for the blog? Hopefully allowing me to have feed back, but wouldn't be the "Oh, G*d, she's writing about THAT again..." blog?  Any ideas would be appreciated, I do read my comments! (And even answer them, on occasion...)

21 comments:

  1. I am one of those lucky ones who doesn't have a weight problem, but I have friends who are overweight and it seems like diets don't really work unless combined with exercise, if even then. When I compare my attitude toward food with my one friend who is trying to lose weight (before her Alaska cruise) I see that it is her relationship to food that needs to change. I am sure that must be very difficult. I always enjoy your blog and I think it's fine to share what is going on with you, which includes the diet as well as your daily life. Just don't think of yourself as a failure. I tried to stop smoking for 25 years before I succeeded and I hated myself all that time for being so weak.

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    1. The exercise bit is the ONLY thing that has helped, for me. I don't have the patience to count calories, I have sort of learned portion control. I can't call any food forbidden, or it drives me up the wall that I can't have it. So, I exercise. Lost 20 pounds, then stopped. EEEP. I don't know that I think of myself as a failure, just feel like I had a major set back, and now I am behind on my (definitely self imposed) deadline. I have no idea how hard it is to stop smoking, but I know very few that have been able to do it the first try, so I think diets might be in a similar arena. Anyway, thank you for the thoughts!

      Cat

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  2. I wouldn't mind one bit to see your weight loss in this blog (as a side note, I just RE-discovered your blog, somehow it got lost?!) so have some back-reading to do.

    Good luck with your blog decision, and if you make another weight loss / exercising blog, I'd love to join because I've been needing to drop at least 30 lbs. and I just don't have the willpower. I HATE anything that seems like exercise (but love to horseback ride, or do physical stuff in the garden), I always tell myself that I could be doing something more productive than being on a treadmill or stationary bike. Add that to the fact that I have an addiction to food (not joking), it makes it very difficult to keep the weight from creeping up & up.

    Sorry for my long sob story!

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    1. Well, hello again! :) I haven't decided yet. But hey, we all have things that are hard, I know mine happens to be not eating like a big guy (cough DAD cough) when I am not.

      And well, even if I don't make a separate blog, I will put updates on this one, and so comments can show up randomly and accordingly! I don't think I have a food addiction, but you know, it seems that is the most nasty of ironic addictions, it's not like you can keep food out of your life... Hmph.

      Cat

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  3. Weight on Wednesdays? The decrease in exercise is clearly not due to a lack of effort!

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    1. Not completely... I did seem to have a time with a hour of walking, when I couldn't walk. Hmmm.

      Cat

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  4. I can tell you from experience that dieting never works, unless you can figure out a diet you can stay on forever.

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    1. Yes, I heartily agree, that's why I have found portion control and LOTS of exercise to work much better. I still eat, I still get "what I want" food wise, I just know, gee, I want X, guess what, extra 20 minutes or so of walking this week. Normally it works...

      Cat

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  5. I enjoy your blog. Just write what you would tell me if I called you on your cell. Those are the best posts. I know people have theme blogs and that's super nice. But us regular people (you and me - ha) we just type what we want. Cooking?? type the recipe. :Frustrated? Let it all out and just tell me.

    By the way, I'm with you on the walking. Just can not make myself do it.
    Maybe we can be walking buddies. We'll challenge each other and blog about it. HA! It's a deal

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    1. Most of the time that's exactly my writing style, ('specially the venting ones. Eep.) I was actually sort of enjoying walking, but now it's no longer fun, or comfortable. With some hope, I will either figure out how to correct that, or learn some new method of exercise that doesn't cost much, and is "keep-withable". And yeah, you yip at me if I don't blog about my walking, I need something! ;)

      Cat

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  6. Hello, I am a new follower from A to Z. How could I not follow a blog that begins with "Crap on my shoes" - and ends with a knitting reference.

    Glad to have found you. I sometimes have crap on my shoes as well - walking my grand dogs all the time and not watching where I am stepping. I have cats in the house, and sometime I get a hair ball between my toes - (real gross ...), and I am a knitter. So I look forward to spending time on your blog.

    Cheers.

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    1. Welcome! We have "land mines" from dog, cat, llama, and chicken, so it gets a little interesting around here... So I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. So, read on, and I hope you enjoy.

      Cat

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  7. No great ideas. Losing weight is just the pits. I'm trying to visit all the A-Z Challenge Blogs this month. My alphabet is at myqualityday.blogspot.com

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    1. Works for me! I will try and make it over there, I need to get about to a few more blogs, too...

      Cat

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  8. For the blog, you may just want to keep this as the "anything and everything" blog, including a once a week or every two weeks or every month accountability about your latest efforts. You pick the time frame, make it work for you.

    Have you thought of getting a rowing machine? Some body builders even say that if they were forced to choose one piece of exercise equipment, they would go with it because it takes care of cardio and is a strength work out as well. You can even get the ones that fold up and go under the bed, though they are not as sturdy.

    Is there a gym anywhere that you could join? Would a local school that has a track allow you to go over there and walk daily when it is not in use by students? It's never convenient to have to drive somewhere to work out, but in your case you may want to consider it.

    As for the relationship with food, i played the yo-yo diet game for 30 years before i finally decided that it was time to put food in its rightful place in my life -- not a comfort, not something to turn to as a reward or a celebration, but a way to nurture myself and to make my body feel better so i can do the things i want. It took adding new things, like juicing and green smoothies to get me off the drugs of sugar and white flour, until i had no room in my diet for the things that aren't good to my body.

    You can get there, it just takes finding what works best for you.

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  9. A rowing machine... Hmm. That is indeed one I hadn't thought of. Might have to see where I could try one of those.

    My biggest problem is the local gyms have lots of body builders, and I get vaguely intimidated when a guy bench presses 300#, then clanks it on the support bars, while grunting like he's going to puke. This just isn't exactly my cuppa tea. That and I find it rather expensive (or I am very cheap, take your pick.) I have tried swimming at the pool, gyms, and even considered the track, but it's about 30 minutes from my house, and I guess I just don't feel like driving every day for something I could do at home. (I don't know exactly if that's an excuse or an explanation, but at 4$+ a gallon, it's important.)

    Green smoothies? I am thinking lime? Cucumber? Wheat germ? Hmm. I think I might not be able to do that, I just would get hungry for things I 'couldn't' eat. I just need to get serious on portion control and exercise again. But I have found what works for one, fails miserably for others, so if it worked for you, I am pleased! I just don't know if I would have the will power for it...

    Cat

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  10. Sigh... that weight thing, hate it. I have to weigh each morning, watching for water retention. I can piggy out for a week or I can get busy and forget all about food. My weight seldom wavers. I have the metabolism of an old woman... wait a minute, hey, I am one! I always weigh the same unless I eat salt or salty and pack on the water. I think the key is exercise, which is difficult for me to do, because breathing is hard enough to do let alone exercise with a bad knee, and bad ankle (other side). Well anyway, when I was younger, the best exercise for me was doing regular exercises ie: flopping around on the floor using hand and ankle weights.

    I like your blog just the way it is, it ain't broke.

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    1. Yeah, and I have salt monster cravings occasionally, so I know of what you speak... :P

      Then perhaps I don't need to fix it? ;)

      Cat

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    2. Nope, your blog is just fine.

      I agree with you on the problems with the exercise bike, I think it got worse when I got heavier, not 'sactly sure why.

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  11. I think it's fine to post on this blog about your journey with weight loss. But maybe pick a day and blog about it only on that day of the week to keep yourself from feeling like it is overwhelming the rest of your blog. Just a thought.

    Best of luck to you on weight loss. It's so difficult! I'm currently trying to lose weight as well. It's not an easy task.

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    1. Yes, I try to do a Wednesday blog for that, but I wandered away from it for a bit, have to get back in the habit, I guess...

      And thank you!

      Cat

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